Believe it or not (though I know it’s easier for your to NOT believe it) I think a lot about my future.

One of the greatest (or worst things) that my parents instilled in me is the idea that you work your ass off no matter what you do. Actually the exact phrase they use to drill in my head was: “If you’re gonna do a half-assed job, you might as well not do the job at all.” As a result, I’m a bit of a compulsive work-a-holic I try to put about 225% into everything I do. I fear that this may end of being a problem for me in the future so I am systematically taking steps to ensure that it doesn’t but, that’s easier said than done.

I want to know that when the time comes for me to start my family that I can provide for them without sacrificing the entire family concept. I want my children to have a father who is passionate about their education and deeply involved. I want my wife to have a husband who is around to protect her and who gets in bed with her at or around the same time every night. I want a family that has meals together, even if it’s not everyday of the week. Being a realist though I know that the position I’m in now isn’t going to allow that. That’s why it’s so terribly important for me to get my crap straight now. Otherwise this song could end up being dedicated to me:

Fort Minor was Linkin Park frontman Mike Shinoda’s side project. It was absolutely great, but unfortunately he put his efforts back into Linkin Park. Where’d you go was huge when it debuted.

The song looks at the disappearance of men in a variety of ways. One leaves to serve our country, one just leaves the other is apparently some type of athlete. No matter what the song is being sung from the view of the wife, children or parents. All of these men have their reason for doing what it is they do but, the affect it has had on those around them has been dramatic. I DO NOT WANT TO BE LIKE THAT. I know nothing is perfect but if at any point in time my wife or children ask themselves where I’ve been, or where I went, I’ll feel like a failure.

Do you have a fear in your future that you think about often?

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