Every once in a blue moon I like to post an entry like this because it helps me and others to realize who exactly I am.
This week I started a new job, and I think that there are some folks in my training class who grossly misunderstand who it is I am. Furthermore, I’ve been chit-chatting with some folks from my church who seem to misunderstand who exactly it is I am. I’m under no sort of obligation to share this, but I think our idea of self is often clouded when we allow the influence and opinions of others to creep in. That’s why I post these types of entries, not because I don’t know who it is I am, but because sometimes I need a reminder of who that person is, so that my intentions (motives) for doing life stay pure to their cause.

With out further ado…

Hi I am Will and…

• it is next to impossible for me to follow trends. In fact, most of the time I go against the grain just because it seems second nature to me.
• I used to and sometimes still do have a retched temper. I’ve learned though (but not through personal example) that a temper gets you no where but a hospital bed or a jail cell.
• I don’t think that because I listen to hip-hop or other music generally considered “not good” by those who feel morally superior makes me a bad person.
• I serve a REAL God. I recognize that is hard for many to understand, so let me clarify. My God gets pissed when I screw up. My God lets me know, and helps me figure out just exactly what I need to do so I don’t replicate the screw-up. My God sometimes has to say: “Hey IDIOT, get your head in the game, or I may have to get it in there for you!” Yes, my God has called me an idiot before, but He does it out of love. My God and I have gotten into verbal confrontations and in the end He usually wins. (He’s a pretty good debater) Basically, my God reminds me on a continual basis that I’m a screw-up, but that it’s ok, because He’s working to help me live a better life. He’s also ok with the fact that I’m a screw-up, even though that’s not the way He intended for me to be.
• I just realized that politics in this country are a joke and really have no desire to be nearly involved in them as I once was.
• I believe that despite popular opinion ALL music has some sort of theme or lesson that it is attempting to teach.
• it is very difficult for me to accept credit for much of anything. Actually I DESPISE having my name mentioned in any form of affirmation.
• I am a judgmental bastard who is working diligently everyday to change that.
• I’m single and despite whatever I may say about it I hate it. NOT because I need someone to make me feel good about myself but because I can’t bare the idea that I have absolutely no idea how to look for the person who it is that God has out there for me. (You can spare me the comments about her coming to me, because it takes two to tango and if I’m having such a hard time finding her, whats to make me believe shes not having as equal of a time trying to find me.
• I watch shows like The Hills, Gossip Girl, 90210, The Ellen DeGeneres Show and other television shows that cause many to question my sexuality or say that I’m less of a man as a result. Well for one you can see the point above, and for two, good television is good television whether you’re in possession of a penis or a vagina. GET OVER IT.
• drama in my life drives me nuts but, drama on television, on the radio, in magazines, the movies or Hollywood excites me beyond explanation.
• with me it’s what you see is what you get. I don’t have anything to hide behind, and really have no desire to do so. If you’re offended by my words and/or actions or anything else about me, I would: A.)Let me know, and then B.)GET OVER IT.
• I’m deeply opinionated but unlike many other deeply opinionated folks (at least the ones I know) I accept the reality that others have opinions too.
• I’m a compulsive work-a-holic. It drives me.
• I used to believe that I couldn’t function well if I wasn’t stressed to the core. I’ve since realized that that is the furthest from true.
• I’m paranoid beyond belief. I don’t even like being at my church after dark because of the neighborhood it’s in! :-/
• censoring myself is something that I am completely uncapable of doing outside of the arena of my job (and it’s actually quite difficult there too).
• text messaging, e-mailing, myspace/facebook messages, twitter messages and various other online tools work better than talking to me on the phone for communicating with me because, well see the above statement.
• have a passion for the written word and for speaking it in public in front of many people. Speeches come natural for me and the ability to speak without a script isn’t difficult for me. Not bragging or anything, it’s just something I’m proud of.
• I like to eat.
• my best ideas and thought processing occurs on the toilet or in the shower.
• I have many aquaintances, but few <a href=”http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Friendship” title=”Friends” target=new>friends</a>. The friends I do have though know that I’d give most of myself for them.
• I’m not a fan of fantasy worlds. I like to live in reality as much as possible, even if reality is sad or depressing. Why sugarcoat things?
• I don’t think that motivational speaking is in my future as I have a hard time trying to tell people what they want to hear. Most of the time what I feel they need to hear just flows out of my mouth a lot easier.
• I’m not afraid to admit that I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing here. I am however slowly learning everyday what my purpose in life is and how to carry that purpose out. I’ve still yet to figure out why I’ve been given that purpose.

There you have it, that’s a brief look into some of the things that are often misunderstood about me. Hope it sheds some light on who I am.