I wrote on July 3rd about I finally decided to pursue my dream of a career in radio broadcasting. I was going to attend the CSB School of Broadcasting and they even offered me a 1/2 paid scholarship.

Unfortunately I learned this morning that there is absolutely no way that I am going to be able to come up with the other half. I’ve tried every outlet imaginable and it’s just not going to happen.

So…so much for that idea.

I believe that sometimes we’re not meant to pursue all of our dreams. I think if we WERE meant to pursue every dream we had things would be nuts. We’d probably all be in financial ruins and life would be completely abnormal. I know that most would disagree with me. Most folks believe that you should passionately pursue all of your dreams until you achieve them. Come on folks, the reality is my pursuit of this dream would have left me in financial ruins. I’d be in deeper debt than I already am from the loan I would have (if I could have gotten approved for it) had to take out, I would have spent years working my way up a ladder making next to nothing (thus pushing myself in further debt), to one day attain my goal in this particular field, still not making a whole lot of money. Sure money isn’t everything, not when it comes to pursuing your dreams, but honestly, bills HAVE to be paid, food HAS to be bought, fuel HAS to be put in the car, debt HAS to be paid down and a home is NEEDED for survival. So sure, money isn’t EVERYTHING, but it sure does play a significant role in everything.

Anyway, I don’t know whats ahead. I’ll still podcast, which gives me ample opportunities to live out parts of my dream. I’m also contemplating starting a production, or DJ business on the side and teach myself different aspects of the trade. Who knows. My dreams not dead, but this avenue of pursuit more than likely is.

Well folks, I finally grew a pair and decided it was time to pursue my dream.

I’ll be starting classes later this month at CSB School of Broadcasting to train for my dream career in radio.

It’s funny how things work, 4 months ago I requested information and I really loved everything about the school. Especially how classes are taught by industry professionals who are out there doing this everyday, and how the equipment is modern, and many other great deciding factors. Then, they disclosed the price of admission. It’s nearly $ 12,000 for the 16 weeks worth of courses. Needless to say, I put my dream on the back burner again, as there was/is no way I can afford to shell out that type of money at one time. I put all the paperwork away, and would read through the e-mails they sent out then delete them.

Well, a couple weeks ago I got an e-mail about a ‘Free’ Podcast Seminar open to the public. I knew that free meant I’d have to go through a tour and sales pitch for the school, but didn’t mind because I wanted to learn more about podcasting since I recently started the UI Podcast, and it wouldn’t hurt me to learn about the school. For whatever reason, that day I told myself mid-way through the seminar that this was where I belonged. This was the industry I needed to be in, and my dream career was the path I needed to take.

Long story short, things have worked out (yes, even financially) and my dream is going to become reality. It’s funny Anne was talking about how Nashville, where she and her husband (who consequently has some pretty serious musical talent, you can listen to his stuff by checking out his myspace) recently moved is a place where people go to chase their dreams. In talking about those dreams she said “most of the time, those dreams take sweat, blood and tears to achieve. it requires living simply, working wherever and whenever you can so that in the few hours you have left, you can spend them working out whatever that dream is.” That was actually the topic of the essay I wrote in order to get the scholarship I received which covers the other half of my tuition.

I can’t wait to pour my blood, sweat, and tears in to this dream. I can not wait to work my butt off, and start as low as a human being can start in this industry and work my way up. I can’t wait to get my first job in the industry that is completely unrelated to what I actually want to do (which by the way, my goal is to be a show producer, or board operator and eventually work my way up to having my own show). I can’t wait to have to work 8 hours a day during the day, or night and pour the 12 hours a day into a job that starting out is going to pay absolute crap.

You know why I can’t wait?

Because it’s my dream. It has been for as long as I can remember. And I’m finally living it.